background:.
my parents got the “truth” while i was in primary school.
i was baptised at 14. i loved school and was extremely studious.
"This was my turning point. I now realised I had been conned. I had believed in a lie. And the implications were devastating to say the least. I cried for days. For my lost hope of everlasting life. For the harsh reality of my mortality."
this is exactly what happened to me. We were raised in this thing called the truth- we weren't raised to believe and accept we were going to die... I struggle still 3 years later... Welcome - glad u are here 😊
blondie’s comments you will not hear at the february 19, 2017 wt study (december 2016) (throw anxiety jehovah).
https://www.jw.org/en/publications/magazines/watchtower-study-december-2016/.
excellent general website: www.jwfacts.com .
"The watered down versions of meetings, with videos, publications on i-pads that somehow no longer contain demons. Unsingable songs, elders who still bumble through the scripted parts, the only good part is no longer having to give talks in the school
Associate with people who judge you, lucky if they say hi as they quickly walk by, to encourage their real friends on the other side of the hall. Nobody wants to be dragged down by your problems."
This above comment is spot on. My anxiety went away when I stopped forcing myself to waste 6 hours of my week going to a building with people who did not have the "love amoung themselves" that is supposedly one of the "identifying marks" of the true religion!! Haha
i hope your new job is rewarding😊
i want to thank everyone for the support you give in this forum, i know i'm just one of many who feel this way.
i'm not just talking about feedback about my issues but overall i have leaned so much from what is said to help others who have/are leaving the wts.
i also want to add the ripple effect that what help one person here goes forward to everyone else in our lives!
I have not been able to formally introduce myself due to lots of family still in- but I also find a lot of encouragement reading everyone's intro stories! Thank you
attendance: 1,2037 cost: approximately $12,000 baptised: 2 born ins.
Not to mention that those 2 born-ins shouldn't have even been born if their parents listened to the direction from the org not to have children...just saying
in 4 segments because won't post all.. .
segment 1. .
blondie’s comments on the february 12, 2017 wt study (november 2016) (minds on spirit).
Thank you! Love this so much!! Love the part about the "so called peace" lol I have so much peace at home instead of at the indoctrination sessions aka meetings 😀
some things that have helped me in my journey... .
since a major part of what the watchtower society does, involves the twisting of the real meaning of the bible and specific verses... it makes sense to me, whether a person has some kind of belief in the bible or not, to go to the source of the twisting, get it's real meaning, unravel the the knots and chains, and walk free.. for me, a huge part of the unravelling process has been spending time in the gospels.. the pharisees.... i used to read the gospels, and listen to audio bibles, and every time the pharisees showed up, i would sign/groan/mockingly laugh:.
matthew 9. matthew 23 .
Isn't it interesting when you step away from the cult and indoctrination sessions everything becomes so much more clear and makes sense. One thing I noticed personally after I stopped going to meetings was how much fear was inculcated in me and how the burden was lifted and I felt more content. Thank you for this post
it has been 18 years since i decided to leave and fade away, and at that time i was feeling a lot of pressure that i wasn't doing enough, didn't fit in with the folks in my congregation, and was unhappy in my young jw marriage.
needless to say i recklessly went and had an affair that left me pregnant.
i did not know what to do, i panicked and got major anxiety.
Crisis of conscience by former gb member Franz REALLY helped me realize I wasn't raised with "the truth". Do some searches on here and Internet about cognitive dissonance - it will really make sense to you how you feel and how to start deprogramming from what was inculcated in us. Start making all decisions based on what makes you alone happy, not based on what we are supposed to do, and have no guilt about it. This jw guilt is crippling and handicaps your emotional well being. Checking this site regularly and reading others journeys has proved invaluable to begin the path to healing! Welcome😊
i go to a hall (very rarely) with a single cong of about 60 people in a small city of maybe 10000. our board of elders is a bunch of childless weirdos or at least the ones that make an effort.. they recently changed the sunday meeting time from 10/12 to 1/ 3. a number of us are pissed off.
its makes to hard to drive to the city or go to a football game.. i just know the gestopo elders behind the change.
if your life isnt as miserable or pointless as theirs, they arent doing their job.
Maybe they will be selling your hall off soon and getting everyone ready for the 1:00 meeting you will have at a neighboring hall? Just a guess...
i began my exit from the jehovah’s witness organization about 5 years.
i was a 4th generation born-in, with all the baggage that comes with having the “spiritual heritage” attached to the group.
i was an elder/bethelite/pioneer/whatever other useless privilege there was, i had no family or friends outside of the organization… my entire life was that org.
At the heart of it, we want our parents to unconditionally love us. When we choose as adults with free will, NOT to live in this cult, we realize who of our loved ones truly love us unconditionally. I'm so glad your father made such an effort to tell you this, great news!
so this past week the wife and i have received several phone calls and text messages from our old hall.
we were also invited out to dinner to catch up with some old friends.
an hour before dinner this guys wife messaged my wife and said that she "can't wait for tonight!!
I'm always amused how easy it is for Jws to pick and choose which bible principles they will go by and which they ignore... In this case treat others as you wish to be treated and let your yes mean yes and no no were clearly ignored...
